Dr3amz

All I wanted

2011-06-02T21:51:00.002+08:00

All I wanted was to love you. Sometimes u do make me worried, not directly, but indirectly where I do worry if I lose you, what will happen then? I would love to see you everyday, but you insist on not seeing me for 1 week. Maybe u think it will be fun, for me to not see you for 1 week and getting all excited when I do. But honestly speaking, I don't usually feel that way. I love seeing people who are important to me everyday. Although it's just a few short minutes, I don't mind. As long as I get to see you. I do have this bad habit, I tend to think people don't care anymore when I don't see them daily. This week has been a really hard week for me. I want to see you, but you won't allow me. I guess, I just have to wait. I always do things for you, have u ever thought of doing some back for me? I m not mad, just, I miss you alot ♥

You just don't understand

2011-04-18T17:32:00.002+08:00

I have to admit. You're still a young girl trying to act old. You don't think like a mature lady. You just try to act like you're. I want you to grow up, not physical wise, grow up to be a mature young lady. A lady that respects others, a lady that has her own expectations, a lady that doesn't follow others because they are her friends. Don't be a follower, you will end up like trash. think abt your future, think abt how are you gonna survive without me around. Think! if I am off to overseas, I wonder how are you gonna survive. So don't take someone else for granted. They don't have the responsible to take care of you. You parents will leave you 1 day. then you are gonna be all alone. Then what? Sit and cry till someone comes and help u? Sorry no. Nobody will come. I can assure you that. If you don't help yourself, nobody is gonna help you.

长大吧

2011-04-06T00:31:00.002+08:00

还有那些幼稚的想法，证明你还没有长大。17岁了，人也老了，但头脑没变，有何用呢？成长吧！！

This is the eng version: you're already 17, but your mind is still filled with childish thoughts and immature thinking skills, seriously I think it's time for you to GROW UP.

< / 3

2011-03-30T10:54:00.002+08:00

sometimes you break my heart, but you don't even know. Seriously, you piss me off at times, then comes the best part. YOU WILL GET MAD! I AM LIKE WTF?! you made me pissed, then solve the problem! You caused it, so you fix it, not me apologizing for no apparent reason
-.-

I get it now

2011-03-09T20:07:00.003+08:00

dear, i know you love attention. that's why you never resist it when a guy gives it to you. You really love it, when someone compliments you and whatever. So you tend to stick to that person more and ignore the rest. I know i dont give you much compliments, i am sorry. I seldom give compliments to people, i will insults them more often. But that's my way.

By having this habit, alot of guy will start to talk to you. I don't really like it. As it makes me invincible, as if i m not important anymore. I am sorry if i am saying this. but maybe i m feeling a little down now :(

Anyways, I do hope you know what is a real compliment and pure flirting. I do hope you know the difference. I do love you. but do you love me as much as i do? or other guys have made their way into your heart and filled up the space that was once mine.

I m sorry for this post if i m thinking too much. Please tell me that i am wrong about this. text me, call me. anything. i just want to hear it from you.

ps: nothing happened. i m just a little emo right now. pfft

Appreciate the small little things in life

2011-02-10T18:51:00.003+08:00

Not everyone is as fortunate as you. not everyone has a life you have. VICE VERSA. You sometimes are not fortunate as everyone else. you may not have a life everyone has.

do you know why? THIS IS CALL LIFE.

It's a game we play the way we like to play it. It's not about following others. It's about creating something that is able to consider yours.

Sometimes. you should really LEARN how to forgive someone. You cannot be so darn stubborn and continue going on and on and on with you own opinion. learn to accept what other people has to say.

1 thing it is true. You are a very stubborn girl. Your past has affected you to act in ways that are not right. I know, you have never celebrated valentine's day, and is very eager to spend it with me, as this would be your first valentine's day being NOT SINGLE. Honestly telling you, this is my first valentine's day i spend with my girlfriend. I did not spend it with my ex as she was in Australia. All i could do is give her a call. Now it's different.

I am sorry if i hurt your feelings.

but here are my advices to you.

1) DONT BE SO STUBBORN. LEARN to accept.
2) DONT BE SO SENSITIVE. Little little then angry only.
3) DONT KEEP EXPECTATIONS IN YOUR HEART AND EXPECT ME TO KNOW ABOUT IT. I m not mutated, i cant read your mind.
4) WHEN I ASK SOMETHING, ANSWER ME BACK. KEEPING THINGS HANGING IS THE MOST DUMBASS THING TO DO IN THE WORLD.

overall:
i am sorry.

Imma lousy boyfriend

2011-01-19T15:57:00.000+08:00

Title says it all.
I can't satisfy my girlfriend in anyway. I suck

uncertainties in life

2011-01-19T13:17:00.002+08:00

[Relationship]
We never know when the girl is really in love with you. we never know. it's still an uncertainty.
We never know whether the girl is trustworthy. it's still an uncertainty.
we never know whether she is the right girl. it's still an uncertainty.
we never know whether we want to spend the rest of our lives with that girl. it's still an uncertainty.
Is she cheating on you? it's still an uncertainty.
WILL she cheat on you? it's still an uncertainty.
Is she willing to spend happy moments AND go through hardships TOGETHER. it's still a main uncertainty.

[Life]
what if we dont turn out what our parents hoped we would have become?
what if we dont succeed in life?
what if we cant afford to even buy food for ourselves in the future?
what if?

What if everything we thought of, a happy ending, a long lasting relationship, the outcome is all opposite? then what?

I hate uncertainties. FUCK YOU!

Insecure

2011-01-13T00:59:00.002+08:00

What is the feeling of insecureness? I think I am experiencing it now. Aihz. There was once a person said, always beware of your good friends, because they can steal your partner right under your nose. And I do think that is very very true! explanation is here: your good friend = her good friend. Both = best friends. Only thing separating us both is the way she looks at each of us. Meaning? If she treats you like you are her boyfriend, then you are her boyfriend. If not, you are just a friend. so I m NOT AND NEVER SURPRISE IF ANYONE OUT THERE HAS BEEN DUMPED BECAUSE YOU PARTNER WENT OFF WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND. So always keep your guard up. Never let your girls to flirt with other people! Or vice versa
When the girl says " you don't trust me ah?" seriously I dunno what is gonna happened in the future.
1 minute you can be loyal, another minute, you don't think I exists. Pfft -.-

Annoying pissed of shit

2010-12-18T22:17:00.002+08:00

DAD!! fck you!!!! :-@ grrr! Your friend called you! And you promised that you will call him back! NOT ME CALL HIM BACK! ma cao hai la!! NOW YOU ARE SCOLDING ME THAT I DIDN'T KEEP MY PROMISE! Diu Ni! You promised him that you will call him
Back! Not me! You didn't promised him that CHEE YAN will CALL HIM BACK. nia ma 1 -.- DONT SAY I M DISRESPECTFUL, it is your fault! Not me!!

Mcbccbfuckdiuknsknnwthwtfbbq !!!

Wish list achieved!!

2010-11-28T21:49:00.002+08:00

I got my IPHONE!! waahahahahaaaha!!
it's awesomeeee :) So yes, my dad suddenly wanted to buy me the iphone instantly, so he went to digi centre, and started queing up for 1 hour before reaching his turn. Then he went to the counter, can bought me an iphone! :) awesome.
since i m using a digi line, so i bought my iphone from digi as it is cheaper and the services are more efficient and customer friendly :) MAXIS, you go jiak sai.
Anyways!
my iphone is a 16Gb black iphone. After i got it, i couldn't bare to scratch it so i went out with my baby to Mv and Gardens to buy the cover for the iphone, and also the screen protector of course.
Now i m using a green ( fav colour ) anti slip cover and an anti finger print screen protector :D wheee. haha!

Anyways, I'm not gonna jail break it YET! as to let it has its virginity first, before i burst the bubble :)
Ahhh got college tomorrow! crappp. -.-

okay, Tonight got Barclays ATP World Finals, in London. It is the Finals and it is R.Nadal vs R.Federer!! It is gonna be an epic match!! It's starting at 1am -.- too bad i am unable to watch it as i got college tomorrow. ughhh fuck you maths class

but it's okayy. i get to see my belvoed small tiny pi gu baby :DD whee! haha! okok! ciaox :)

good nights everyone.

Toast Master

2010-11-26T00:31:00.002+08:00

Toastmaster is a club i joined recently. It's not about making the best toast in the world, or learn how to fix toasters.
It's to learn a way on how to speak fluently in front of a crowd.
There are 10 speeches needed to be completed to have the title of CC ( communication competant) at the back of your name. And Advanced ones later.
I am doing my FIRST speech the following TUESDAY !! GAHHHHHH i am nervous from now on already!!!! SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT ~ what if i make mistake? what if what if what if ? O.o
Anyways, the first speech title is on Icebreaker. So it's basically talking about myself to everyone else. I guess, it would be easy :) haha as i have spoke in front a big crowd before. haha

Anyways, Priya and Harris's birthday is coming up soon. in 3 days time. So yeah. we are going to MV and we'll see what are we gonna do there la :) i hope no alcohol is involved in this :( or else there will be a big mess again. aihz. hope my baby listens this time.
That's all for now! :)

OH OH! MY BRO WENT TO JAPAN!! He is probably sleeping soundly right now :) He will be back in a week's time. haha. that's all for now.

Good nights peeps :)

me bored

2010-11-19T21:37:00.002+08:00

It's a friday night... and i have nothing better to do. maybe it is meant for me to cool down after a week of hectic schedule (: but in the meanwhile, i feel bored. i guess... when someone is used to their hectic life, a sudden change of pace could be really unusual :)
so yes, i m having a break now :) a break as in a non so busy life. when you feel that you have so much time in the world and you want it to fly by faster :) haha!

so yeah. today i had a great time with my baby in times square. We went for cheese bake rice first! IT WAS AWESOMEEE!! and came megamind. a very funny cutee show. hehe. i hope baby enjoyed it. next we went for bubble tea. As you all know, my baby loves drinking bubble tea. and it's always mango flavour :)
We went on trying out clothes from F.O.S then while waiting for Aik Chuen to arrive to TS to meet us. We tried the MOST horrible clothing we can find, and both of us tried it out :) we looked damn funny! My shirt was a RED checkers shirt and it was too small for me. ended up exposing my fatty tummy. hahaha.
After that Aik Chuen came then we started discussing about a job offer she can offer me. Then we headed back home :)
That's my friday for you. Oh besides HARRY POTTER 7 IS HERE !!!! SOOOO GONNA WATCH IT ! I'M SORRY DEAR THAT YOU DONT LIKE HARRY POTTER :)
hehe! <3 you loads

Signing out

flirting

2010-11-15T20:26:00.003+08:00

okayy. I suddenly have The urge to write about something not related to my relationship :) here goes.

The world is unfair to all of us. So we can say it's fair in the way :) guys are born very similar to girls. We have almost the same features, same number of hands legs eyes everything. The difference is only the thing between our legs. So what makes guys have the determination to search for his partner for life? Here's it.

Some guys are born handsome, some guys are born smart, some are born into a filthy rich family where no stress or financial problem exists (unfair huh?) well some are born with an awesome usage of the mouth, ones that usually talk crap and being flirty. some are born with Extreme sex appeal. So what does the fatty ones and the not so good looking ones have? Don't they just take up all the rejected girls? No. We still can make things work out. Life's a game, we play it the way we want it :)

ok, here are some tips. first: never tell the girl you love her before anything happens betw you both. If you are still unsure whether the girl likes you, never say the 8 letter word. Even you have said it, back up...give the girl
some space to breath while absorbing what you said. Never push her, she will eventually choke and reject you.
Second: never stalk her. Okay this is very annoying. A girl needs her space, don't go wherever she goes, don't keep asking her "so what r u doing now?" this will make the girl that she doesn't have space to do whatever she likes. To be honest, every guy stalks or "checks out" the girl they like, now now, don't tell me you don't do tht to the opposite sex, that's pure nonsense. Hehe :) so yah, I will teach u a way to stalk the girl :) for a scenario: you are sitting at your usual table with your bunch of guy friends, and she is with hers. Stalk her by giving short glances to her ONLY. If you do it to others, she will think you're a flirt. After she sees you back, eye to eye, give her a warm smile, then NEVER look back at her again. Okayy..if you can't control, take small peeks. :) keep the distance, so you can stalk her and not her feeling being stalked :)
next: if you have confessed to the girl, and she says no already. It is as a natural reaction that we do not go kacau the girl anymore right? If you still text her everyday, and constantly ask her "whatya doing?" or keep asking information about her lover that she has in mind instead of you, you are already planned to failed :) never do that. Dumbos. leave her alone for god's sake. Jeez.

Lastly: opening lines usually makes wonders. if you are a guy who rarely expresses yourself emotionally, then you are having some difficulties. But oh wells, it's never too late to learn some from
the pros arnd you :) guys who have awesome opening lines are usually around girls that tend to never like them. Hehe. They just love being entertained by the guy, after he is done, he will leave, they will leave too. So yes. Choose the guy you want to be. And besides, fairytales never happen, it only does when we make it happen :)

Good luck to you guys out there! Have fun in your relationship! Cherish every moment (my girl taught me this)
Signing out people! Enjoyyy.
Yanni.

Everything is coooooll now

2010-11-10T17:39:00.002+08:00

I am happy that everything is settle. Dear cried thrice after coll and I m pretty glad she did let it all out. One thing j noticed, her tears can't stop flowing!! :) pretty amazing. Anyways, everything is cool now. All settle :) I love you dear! < 3 as you said, fights make a relationship stronger, it's true ;) me love you more now! Hehe

Do you even know?

2010-11-09T23:39:00.004+08:00

Do you know how much pain there was in my heart when you started accusing me for something that is so NOT TRUE?! You say i don't love you, seriously, it hurts after all the hardwork that i had put into this relationship with you. You are not an easy girl to be with, everything also has to be done your way, or else you will be pissed and angry. But afterall, i didnt not complain a single thing. I have always listened and do it your way.
And after 5 months and 30 days, you now tell me that i don't love you. If i don't love you, i would not have started this relationship, i would not have the initiative to share my life with you. Besides, spending time/ effort with you. When you are hurt, i am there for you. When you need me badly, i will be there for you. So what else you want me to do? accompany you to sleep every night then i go home myself? seriously. wait. When the time is right, the right things will come. You need to have some patience. I am writing all these is to make you realise, what you have misunderstood me for.
I do tell you, i do not like public display of affection. I seriously cannot take it. I will be super shy la. Can't you understand and be tolerate? I thought love is to care for each other, i guess i was wrong. sometimes you don't really care. you just want things to go your way.
EVERYTHING HAPPENED IS CAUSED BY A REASON. IDENTIFY THE REASON = SOLVE THE PROBLEM. simple theory as that.
It is OUR ANNIVERSARY, not anyone else. It is to cherish our love. NOT BOASTING OUR LOVE TO EVERYONE ELSE. Our life is not other people's life. We do not need to boast to ANYONE. So if this statement stands, can't we just go for an romantic dinner in a romantic restaurant and enjoy the moment we spend TOGETHER? Isn't that better than QUARRELLING ON OUR ANNIVERSARY DAY?
And, you said i m not proud to be yours, and you said you don't want to hold my hands anymore in public, because that is what i wanted? nooo. you don't get it. PUBLIC! means college and also means PUBLIC PUBLIC. In shopping malls, i do hold your hand, and we are not put under the spot light. being under the spot light means what? It means with all eyes staring at you, watching your every movement, every gesture. and judge you for that. For example: Do you mind if i kiss you in front of your parents? NO RIGHT?! you can't take it too. That is the same reaction i am having. And you were about your decision that is a NO. see how determined you were? this proves that you do not want that to happen. you will get all shy and maybe kill me for that.
Sometimes, you are too influenced by drama series. You do think that everytime when the girl gets angry, the guy will come and hug her from behind. If it is the guy's fault,then yes! good method. If it is the girl's fault, and the girl expect the guy to come and hug her from behind...sorry. not a chance. this proves that the girl is still not mature enough yet.
I think i only got one of the reasons are you acting this way to me now. You know? It's our anniversary and you are acting like that. Seriously. wtf
I dont know how long will this last ( i hope not) and as gris told me, that it will be all good in no time. I want that, but first, do you know you are at fault for accusing me for all the bad things you said about me. My heart is broken till pieces but i still love you, because my heart tells me, if i let this girl go, i will regret for the rest of my life. So my heart stays...close to yours. all i need now, is for you to realise about all the bad things you said. And a simple yet sincere apology to me, then everything will be back to awesome.

Incomplete day

2010-11-03T09:48:00.002+08:00

I know last nite I made you angry/sad/mad/disappointed. But my really didn't allow me out. so I had to stay home. Sorry if I can't join u all or
lunch&movie at your hse. I really wanna come. Just that...dumb things do occur in life. This is how life supposed to be.
Anyways, while you were a little angry, you wished me good nights but I sensed smtg was not right. :( so tell me. Was everything ok? I didn't mean to make you sad. Me sorry :(

confused and heartache

2010-10-28T22:27:00.004+08:00

Does love come with happiness? Or happiness brings love? these things are very abstract and subjective. Anyone can say anything about it and they are all not considered wrong.
I'm in a relationship, I do feel happy, and I do feel in love, but happiness is a manipulating variable, it changes through time. And love? People say it last forever. But I see it in a different way, I see it as it is always gonna go away from someone. and to be constantly in love, the person has to put in effort to prevent the love to go away from them. It is a feeling that nobody wants to live without. but how about my situation? I am with this girl, she is funny, cute and pretty :) but I don't think she feels happy being with me. However, she feels happy with someone else. so do I consider her in love? Okay, how about this. From a different point of view. she is in love with me, but she finds happiness somewhere else. By saying this, do this make sense? And when I talk to her, she is ignorant. I don't think she remembers what I say. but for other ppl, it's full attention. besides, through facial expression, she doesn't feel happy with me, everytime it's frowning face, when asked by me, she will go "nothing ah" so tell me, what is the meaning of this? basically I can tell myself 1 thing, put in the effort from your side to be in love. others, leave it to God. I'm not a religious person, but i do believe that something strong is controlling everything.
I'm still confused in this state, I don't know what should I do. all I know is, I feel hurt when you don't take me seriously at all, and as the matter affect, I feel like u're taking me for granted.
Now I feel like I'm a friend to you. and I know all about you, but you are not even putting effort to know anything about me. I can simply ask u a ques, what is my favourite colour? I bet you don't even know.

In love

2010-10-27T23:46:00.002+08:00

Okayy. I was surfin using my iPod, then opened a page shuk khuan and cat were reading. It says 'love quotes' so I started digging arnd la :) and I came across this.

Let's commit the perfect crime, I'll steal your heart and you'll steal mine.

The Internet
more famous quotes

it's a pretty nice and meaningful quote :) I love it. Hehe.

I love you baby <3 muaxx!

Retarddddd

2010-10-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

I shall name this person as V. Let unknown person be V.
This mr V is in love with a girl (let's name her W) the status of that relationship now is just friends-close friends. Nothing touching on the lovey dovey stuff yet! So yes, V texts her everyday, W replies sometimes, not all the time la. So yes... With V's attention totally towards ms W, he will blok out things in his mind that says, W comes first, everything also put ms W as first prioirty as don't care about what is happening arnd the world and family. This is every unacceptable for me. You cannot devote ALL ur attention and care and love to someone NOT yours yet. Frankly speaking, you are not sure whether will she ever be yours. If she doesn't? That means you wasted all your time/effort/love for her. Jeez wake up! Know how is thing processing and see whether is it worth it or not, if not, den change. There are many fishes in the sea! Asshole

ms shuk shuk :)

2010-10-23T13:46:00.002+08:00

Actually I don't know why am I writing this post up. Maybe because I love you a lot :) hehe. And I miss you so much! so yes.. 6 month anni is coming! What shld I give my baby? Hmm... Hehe. I actually had some ideas in mind but don't wanna say it out here, ltr she know wad is it edi :) oh wells, studying time! exam next week, omigod :( ok!! Concentrate dumbass! Ciaox peeps

you don't know how to love or be loved by someone else

2010-10-20T22:41:00.001+08:00

Tht's all I want to say. I hope you understand and change for the better. I am really in a heartbreak now. < / 3

woah super emo day -.-

2010-10-18T19:01:00.002+08:00

Okaayyy, i woke up late today. 1st bad thing that affects my mood. then i went to college and it was Ms lim's maths period. She started scolding people who are not finishing their work. i am one of them. 2nd bad thing. -.- den my mood totally got ruined by her. ughhh. fuck! i really hate my day.
so yes, i was emo-ing the whole fucking day. even my dear started asking, oso i couldnt seem to respond. because my mood was really fucked up already.
then at the end of college, kok jin came, asking me to go detention together with him, but i finished my work beforehand, so i dont need to go for the dumbpatheticfuckingretarded detention class. den he also sat down with him and we started talking about our memories. Kok jin and I were from the same primary-secondary school. now same college too. so ya, we share a lot of memories together. End up we were talking about sex , relationship , boobs , dicks , ex[s]. anything horny and sexual, you name it, we have talked about it just now for 2 hours. And guess what, my girl was there, but whatever la, she is too experienced too. She has done more than anyone of us. so nobody cared (:
and we started laughing and swearing so much. it was awesome. such a nice pleasant (horny) talk about life and the past. really cool way to destress.

but right, i was emo for another reason too. When i m down or not feeling well, i start to think alot. And one of the things that pop up in my mind is that, does my girl still care for me for whatever situation or condition i am in? it is really hard to tell as i dont feel it. aihz, shit i m thinking alot agn. FML. -.-

ok. got to go. in case i get all emotional again.
ciaox peeps

wish list

2010-10-16T09:49:00.003+08:00

as you all know... i have 2 numbers. but... one of the numbers dont have a proper phone to be used on. so ya, i m surfing around for a new phone. probably the latest 1 now :) and the conclusion is...

check out this beauty!! I want it soo badly :( but due to the price of it...i probably wont get it until next year i guess. aihz.
there are more pictures of this phone.

and...

this is soo nice :( i want 1! rawrrr

hearts

2010-10-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

I do love you baby. I really do. Sorry fr hurting your feelings on tuesday because I am acting like a jerk to you. Luckily you forgave me, or else I don't think I am able to sleep and eat :( so ya. Everything is coooooll now :) I'm having an awesome girlfriend that looks super funny whn she is putting on the overweight lady face. You all shld ask her to do it for you, I am sure it will make your day :):):) haha! P/s: it looks really funny. Hehe!

I love you alot baby, sorry for making you think I have smtg towards cat, and you know tht is pure bullshit :) my heart only belongs to you dear :)

awesomeness & not awesomeness

2010-10-09T20:45:00.000+08:00

okayy first of all.the awesomeness part of my weekend :) (friday is considered a weekend too) okayy. i FORGOT to bring cash to college on friday. and friday is usually my dating day :) so yeahh. how to survive a day with only Rm6 in your wallet? If you are dating someone, ask him/her to pay for everything! :) wahahhah! if you are not seeing someone, go home.
so yeah, i went to Mv with you girlfriend, she had to pay for EVERYTHING!!! wahahah! it is damn awesome i tell you. the feeling of your wallet safely resting in ur back pocket, and enjoying food at the same time. heheeh! paradiseee babyy~ the day went in this order: lunch mcd > buy movie tickets > follow justin and all to buy stuff > ice cream > home. but horr, my baby so smart. she said we will follow this same plan next week, and the only thing that is changing is I AM PAYING FOR EVERYTHIING and SHE UPGRADED ALL THE STALLS INTO BETTER ONES. how smart my baby can be :) haha! but i don't mind la, she is my baby, everything and anything for that little girl :) hehe!

okayy for the NOT so awesomeness part. We went to celebrate joleen's birthday today. in Mv, speghetti grill and redbox. My baby didn't listen to me and went to have a glass of magarita. And after downing 1 glass only, she started to get high and don't feel good. so yeah, end up she started puking and all until i sent her home. You should know what does liquor does to you, and know where your tolerance is. Not because i am around so you can do anything you like, as you thought that i will be by side all the time to take care of you. I will take care of you, first you have to take care of yourself. Luckily i was there, to take care of you. If i wasn't, will you still drink as you promised me not to? Priya asked me to not to scold you, I said ok. Bt u shld know where u stand. And whether an action is worth doing. U told me u're not gonna drink anymore, becz the feeling sucks. I said good, as u have grown up to be able to think for urself, bt will it last? Let's see abt tht. I would be very happy if u can accomplish what u promised, bt wif the influence of friends, will you still have that strong will to differenciate what is wrong and right. I'm not blaming you for anything, I will guide you on the way as I am your boyfriend and I would want the best for my girl :)

Hard thought feeling

2010-10-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry but I seriously cannot stand your 'sweetness' to YOUR girlfriend. Don't come and bother with mine -.- I don't mind you being sweet to your gf, but please, get a room. When there is guest around, stop all of it. It's pathetically annoying. And it's very rude doing smtg like that in front of someone else. I don't see parents fuck their way off in front of you. I don't see couples touching each other in front of you. Jeez. Watch your manners. Seriously it makes me feel sick. I don't see myself as someone else's boyfriend point of view now, I see myself as an ordinary guest, having a ride home because it's raining. You want to get touchy touchy and all, do it when all guest are gone home -.- so hai. and 1 more thing, your life is not my life, my life is not yours. don't go influencing my girlfriend and telling her that, ur cheeyan not sweet to you ah? don't purposely say things that are meaningless and just to please the opposite sex. Say what is meaningful and really mean what you said. Don't give flowery words to YOUR girlfriend and make mine ask me "how come ure not sweet ah?" I'm sorry, I m not that kind of person. I do not show affection in public like kissing you everywhere on your face, touching every possible spot and hugging and humping. No way I'm doing that. a light kiss I will do, not hardcore kissing in front of your peers.

And please, not everyone fell for someone else's looks, I fell for my girlfriend's inner self. Do not judge me on how I treat her, that's the way I m going to do it. Maybe your way is through flowery words and expensive gifts, mine is not. I value my relationship and I shall do it my way.

Dear, if you are reading this, i'm sorry if you wanted a sweet and affectionate boyfriend, I am not such a person, and I can never be. Sorry then, this thing will never change, it's in me and I can never change that.

This hurts deeply inside of me.

2010-09-27T19:04:00.000+08:00

I can't be satisfying your every needs. small needs I don't mind going the distance. But buying heels and cosmetics aren't my thing. I am not responsible to buy u every thing you want. U jz told me tht u r sad because I didn't bring u on trips. Wth? Trips?! I m not a working man. I m jz ur boyfriend/classmate tht cares intensely for you. I seriously don't like the way you put me into situations. I really don't like it. You can tell me tht u desirely want tht heels, bt nt asking me to get it for you. Jeeez. Both my pockets are empty ok? I would be happy to get them
for u, as I know u will be happy. my main concern and goal is you being happy. But wishing too high is impossible for me to achieve. After said tht, I feel bad. As I said earlier, I can't give you wht u want :(
and besides...this will make me think alot. I will think tht u want me becoz I can give u stuffs. What if I said no to everything? will you still love me? Love...for the character and personality, not for the fame or money or items u can get.

Also, when there are problems... Don't make it worst by avoiding it, face it! And deal with it. Offers solution to try to settle the prob before it starts to get worst.
I m sorry for writing this up. But this is how I really feel. i needed to voice it out as it is better than keeping it to myself.

I still do love you. I really do, I jz get annoyed when u keep bugging me abt those things. It is something unachievable, why bother asking for it?
U can't keep telling me "baby, I wan the moon. Pls get it for me?" impossible!
And if u're joking all along, I'm sorry I didn't get ur joke, but i can't take it well. Sorry.

1312

2010-09-17T17:02:00.000+08:00

Baskin Robins :) Although i love peanut butter and chocolate, mint chocolate chip was awesomeeee too!! :)
Had a great time wif you today dear. After knowing the ure not leaving, made me even happier. Hehe! But hor.. 1 problem. You have to promise me tht ure gna study hard k? I don't want to see frowning or tearing faces when we collect our results in the future. Okie?

Oh ya, after calv saw us in gardens... He told his mom ( tht was his mom btw) tht we are frm mckl also, then when I went to his hse, I was so shy until I went hide under the pillow, when his mok came back. Everyone made fun of me. TT den his mom asked, everyone in mckl hold hands like tht 1 arh.. Gosh turn pink straight away~ hehe :) bt I dun mind la. As long as I m wif you. :)

I love you dear <3
always have always will ~

sad :(

2010-09-16T12:30:00.000+08:00

what a great way to start off my day zzz aihz. My girl just told me that she is gonna change college. what the heck rite?! All of the sudden. she told me that she cant cope with the studies in mckl anymore. It is too tough for her. I know she is demotivated, I know she wants to do well. It is demotivating because after all she studied, she still didn't do well in her exams. For example bio, she studied tht for a week, but end up not doing well. But there is smtg wrong there. 1 week of revision, it is not enough. I m not saying that she is dumb or stupid. I jz nid to say that, it is A levels, we need to study everyday :(
So now she is telling me that she is going to ATC. aihz,although it is near, but u're not physically near to me. It hurts me alot. even now i m feeling the sadness already.
I actually cannot do much in ur decision. You need your own education too, so i don't want to be the guy that when you think back in the future, and say 'i regret following what he said to me' or 'i really should have not listen to him'. I dont want to be the guy that ruined your future. If you really think that law is the right course for you, then go ahead. I m not stoppping you.
In Life, there is always sacrifices, sometimes in money, sometimes in relationships, sometimes in time. There is ALWAYS sacrifices going on. But life goes on, if we are meant to be, we will know that in the future :) i do hope to you all the best in life my dear. I will be always there for you if you need me. I love you, always have, always will.

speaking about sacrifices, i know i will not take this very well the first week, i know i will miss every moment we have together. no matter whether is it: going to college together during exams, or walking out of college holding ur soft hands, or taking the bus together. I will miss it, i seriously do. Now it's worst, when i can fetch you home everyday. Imagine, no more of these everyday :( haih... and now i am gonna be so lonely if i m going out for lunch wif krystle and suk. It is gonna be awkward too.

I know, i do tell you that i hardly cry. now i really am. It's sad. I have been in a long distance relationship before, it was okay for awhile, but feelings fade due to distance. I really dont want to feel like that anymore :( besides, i think u'll feel awkward too when u see me next time, as you'll feel shy and stuff like that. Even holding my hands in the future will be a problem for you.

To my dear, I really do hope that we can stay like this forever. I do not want you to change college, but if you do, i cant stop you. Even after you change, I still do love you. I do not know what is ahead waiting for us to explore, whether you will find a better mate or not. (i do hope not) but it is all down to trust and love. from my side, i do trust you i do love you always.

YAY HOLIDAY!

2010-09-15T20:53:00.000+08:00

YAY HOLIDAY! WAHAHAAH :) although it's only for a day, i don't mind. i can sleeeeeeeeeepppp all i want. hehe! but the worst thing of all, i cannot see my baby :( sad sad. but i can always drive to her hse n knock on the door. hehe.
my house is going to be renovated tomorrow. two big walls are gonna be put down, and the whole house will be super dusty and all. aihz, then my nightmare begins, i have to come back home n clean the house everyday. Gosh, i will be like super busy :(

Anyways, i m planning to get myself a new racquet, i am using an old model of Babolat now. and i find it not really suitable for me. I m planning to get myself a new racquet, a HEAD RADICAL MP sounds goood :) but it will cost me about Rm1000 -.- where can i get the money from? geeez, so i m planning to go to Ampang Park tennis shop to take a look as they are famous for selling good quality cheap stuff :) hehe! hope i can get a great discount from there.

Tht's for now :)
Yanni

m1 and Kenny Rogers

2010-09-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

Okayy the title says part of what is coming along :) as you know we a got our qualifying test results. I did horrible. Everything lower than 50. Damn shit. -.- my maths got 45 (my usually dumbo baby got 49! scary huh?) now she is using tht excuse and kena kan me in any way she like :) haha! I will be at my tip of exploding when she does it, bt I will not scold her or shout, a simple tickle will do :) haha! anyways, my physics got 48% psych got 5x% and chem got 50%. Aihz not good at all. Still sad abt it. :(
oh today baby and I went for Kenny Rogers in kl sentral. She was so hungry until she had no strength to walk, macam taufu fa~ hehee. So we each ordered a quater meal :) the fun part comes after the meal! We played a game on guessing hw
much the meal cost, the loser has to pay for everything. I guessed tht it was lower than 35, she is higher. The bill came
out? Rm36.xx -.- damnit. So I lost and paid or everything. kanasai betul. Thn tht dumbo baby of mine started laughin for 3 hours non stop jz because she won in the bet :)

Tht's my day to you :) hehe! gotta study everyday lo! Gambateh! (=^_^=) okayyy I m lifeless~

Signing off~ yanni

dumbo presentation

2010-09-13T20:00:00.000+08:00

Msian studies presentation. KANASAI. i really dont feel comfortable talking infront of so many people! This is one of my fears. I have decided to cure it once and for all :) which is why, i m joining the ToastMasters Club. Invited by my dad's friend who is one of the senior member of the club. I m gonna start the club tomorrow :) WISH ME LUCK ALL!

Toastmasters club is a club formed to prepare everyone for public speaking. It allows a free space to express ourselves in any way we like.

My meeting is tomorrow from 7.30 to 9.30. Hope I will make a good impression to all the existing members :)

ANYWAYS! i m NOT PREPARED FOR MY MALAYSIAN STUDIES PRESENTATION!! FUCK! oops. sorry for swearing. roaarrrrrrrrr

I can't sleep. I got no idea why

2010-09-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

gosh! Tmr is a college day cheeyan!! Why can't u sleep? Maybe itms because I do love my holidays too much. So it's pretty hard to let go. Hahaha! Just kidding. No wait, seriously, I can't sleep. Maybe I m jz too nervous and excited for the upcoming usopen tennis match! It will be one epic match wei! I really hope I get to wake up to watch them
play. I want nadal to win so badly! I dunno why too. Haha! Funnyrite? Anyways i am texting my beloved angel~ oh! I know! Anothrr reason or me not able to sleep is I really miss my baby so much. It's really awesome knowing some1 like her :)) she makes me life perfect. Hehe! I am glad I knew her in my lifetime. Mayve she could be the 1 for me? Who knows? For now.. Enjoy and relax~ let life bring us to whr it shld be meant for us :)

:)

2010-09-12T19:23:00.000+08:00

Today is quite a goood day. i think. Wanted to watch Tennis US open last night, i mean this morning at 12am. but eventually i was too sleepy and went off to bed :)
Then this morning, i woke up around 10, den instantly checked the scores of the tennis match! check out who won people!
NADAL won the match against Youzny! and DJOVOKIC won FEDERER!! wahaha! Beat that federer! :)
I am really happy that Nadal won and made him throught to the US open FINALS for the FIRST TIME!
Here is a picture of him.

Tonight's the Final. around 1am in the morning. I have college tomorrow. Should i skip? hehe! if i do, sk will scold me for skipping college. how how? :) anyways, i wish nadal all his best to win a career open. and be the youngest 1 of all time! All the best! VAMOS RAFA!

Awesomeness

2010-07-31T17:32:00.000+08:00

I love my baby so much <3
She may not be the prettiest girl i have met, or the smartest girl i have encounter, or the hottest chick in town. But she is the right girl for me.
She is a girl that really makes my heart warm, be there when i needed her the most. Comfort is given by her at all times. Care is shown, love is felt (:
but at times, she will be grumpy. haha! she will show me the piggy face of hers, and that indirectly makes me want to kiss her so badly. the fatty rosy cheeks of hers, the two round eyes staring at me, it makes me smile.
She makes it so easy, other people usually say, it's hard to make chee yan smile. but now, my baby just needs to look at me and give me the piggy face of hers, and there i go again, smile :)
Our bbq nite in mckl just ended, she looked really pretty in it. because? i chose the dress haha! just kidding. it was a pink dress and she looked fabulous in it (: i wore full formal suit. and off we went, to college.
Comments we had after the party? 1) both of u look so cute together 2) Both of you are getting married? hahaa! what comments we had. results of those? we smiled :)

ok. something is wrong wif me today. bt whatever la. Love this post. I shall note down every memory I had in this blog :D

Emotions messed up

2010-05-22T01:06:00.000+08:00

Chemistry just ended. It was kinda okayy. So i was kinda hyper at first, cz chemistry is finally OVER! n the next thing to worry about is Physics. But it's on next thursday. So yeah. I kinda got hyper up since i wanted to sorta celebrate.
den i was chatting wif her. Suddenly BOOM! i m got emo. Stupid emotional changes. It really bothers me. I keep asking myself "why the hell am i getting so emo for ?! " Nobody did anythiing to me. I just dun feel like smiling anymore.
It's tough for me, because i dun really get emo always. I do like smiling, I do like to see other people smile too. I always do things to make other ppl laugh. It is one of the things i must do in my life. It's like a mission to me.
But now, i, myself is emo to the maximum.

Damn this. I m soo fed up with this emotional changes.

Fed-up

2010-02-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

Some people just don't get wad does "helping out" means. When it is your responsibility, you can ask for help. But it's someone else choice to help you or not. You have no rights to force someone to help you. =.=| When that person you asked doesn't wanna help you, find someone else! Dun scold tht person cz it's his or her right to choose to help you or not.

When somene agrees to help you out, you start to boss arnd him, ordering arnd and ask him do stuff WHILE you sit beside him/her, WATCHING him/her work. This is not call helping out, this call ORDERING someone as if he/she is your servant or dog =.=

Concert !!!

2009-05-01T01:44:00.000+08:00

Omgg~ now it's like 1.45am ! hehe~ *sneaking online* =D
Actually it's because i can't sleep T.T

anyway! i m gna blog about our wms concert this year! guess wad is da title people! hahaaa~ it's not a good title anyway ... TT

Title : Puteri Gunung Ledang

i nearly faint after hearing it's this title... =.= Last year was so much better than this year (take the title for consideration only) ~ Last yr's title was Romeo and Juliet ! sooo much better rite ? TT

we are gonna act da play in Malay Style but the dialogues are all in english ! I jz wna wish all da actors, Good luck o! =)

Actors are :
Hang Tuah - Lee Wen Han
Puteri Gunung Ledang - Chloe
some pegawai guy - San Yap
Penjahat - brian naveen !!

*there are loads more but i jz don't know them* =P sorrry ~ hehee

ANYWAYS~~ I am joining choir people! but all the songs are malay songs... soo, haih~ wad to do! =) jz go along wif it~ n concert practices startes on Monday! 2.15- 3.15~ *boredd*

Alright. tht's all for now =D the bed awaits me !
Signing off,
Yanni ~

Summary of Everything i missed blogging on =D

2009-04-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

OMG!! so long din blog liao! hahaha! Was too busy on IR day and Amazing Race day i guess =D

Okkayy... start~ dumm dumm dumm~ hehe

Leo's Ir day passed quite long time ago liao~ I was the Hulk people! =) hehehe~ i coloured myself whole thing green wif green face paint. =D den acted out in a play!

That was me in green - THE HULK !

That's Sin yee with her Lara Croft's bubble gun =D

A group photo after the Ir day was over

After everything was over for the day... A few friends and me stayed back to prepare for the Amazing Race Day which was the next day itself! ><

But it wasn't all work work and work... we went to The Mall n ate dinner till 9pm only came back starting to prepare =P (see how "hardworking" leos can be?) xD hehe~

we slept at 1am when everything was done =)

Okayy... Next Day~ AMAZING RACE DAY! WOOT =) 4th of April 2009 !! okay i know it's a bad choice of date.. see 4/4/09 =.= all sei sei sei~~ *Chooi!! *

Well, everything went well! =)

Our Cool Amazing Race banner done by San Yap and his team! Thank You =)

Openning ceremony of the Amazing Race Day =)

It seems like that are having fun =D hehee

AND something happened during the race... We thought we had lost 2 all-girls team! Because they didn't reach the last station which is Ts... then Mdm Leong n I had to follow the trail from the back to search for them. but guess what? They were in school... Zzz made me run so much!

Kill u ahh if u know who are those members who went back to school without informing us...
hehee =) Jus kidding! ~

Apart from that, everything went good =) hehe! Another successful event! Wooot!

Thanks everybody who helped out for the race and for those who didn't join the race, join it next year! XDD

So thats about all the big events that happened =)

Sign off,

Yanni

Fustration

2009-03-05T18:24:00.000+08:00

Whew... Another gloomy day... ~ It rained this morning when we were having recess in school~
so my mood totally changed... i was already so sick of school, now it rains~ verryy nice~
my day was like =.=
haha~ lols XD

Later... after school. I was supposed to meet someone in school. It's regarding the sponsorship for Amazing Race Event. So i waited for the lady to arrive at 3.30pm in school. but guess wad?! i called her at 3.30, she said she was on an emergency leave. I waited for her.... in the rain... whole body wet... now she tells me that. Wtf! kns!

well, got to go... Tuition time! (boringgg) (i know)

Signing off,
-Yanni-

1st Post!!

2009-03-03T00:48:00.001+08:00

Okkayy, the title says it all. This is my first post for this blog. And according to steph, she says tht I will have nothing to write about.

Hmm? Lets see about tht. =D

I jz finish practicing in World Maths Day. It's super easy! haha! My accuracy on answering question is ..... guess guess! 94% ! bwahahah!

anway, this is jz the first post, so i aint gonna write much on it.

Sign off,
-Yanni-